I just went through my records for new survivor blogs, adding to it from new sites that I came across yesterday. Twenty new blogs, just like that. That makes just over 100 survivor blogs since I first started searching the net for this project in June. Quite a few of the survivor-bloggers I’ve yet to contact regarding this little project. But adding them last night, one survivor after another, it was almost kind of eerie. I got the same feeling when I researched the dozens of children who have died as a result of violence across the state of Indiana. That research was for a charity that I started last month, just after getting a lot of the initial work done for this project.
I kept getting the sense of all these names and faces crying out to me for validation:
“See me. I’m here, I’m REAL. I exist…and I’ve suffered in ways you could never imagine. Most of all REMEMBER me. Don’t forget that all of this happened. Don’t leave me behind…”
August 13, 2007 at 9:11 pm
Hi, my name is Tammy.
It’s odd that you said you started searching in June…I felt the urge to start searching/reaching out on the net in June as well!
I just felt like i was lying dorment, waiting to be helped by something/someone/somewhere…I don’t know.
I first went to the some mess. boards, and didn’t get much there. But i left and introduction there anyway…basically saying “anybody out there”. Someone left me a comm. that led me here, to your site.
I feel like maybe this is the answers I’ve been searching for! hmmmmm…
I have alot of trust issues, so I will have to see I suppose. I’m hopeful anyhow.
My life has been pretty stagnant for some time now…infected w/all sorts of ailments, that keep holdong me back from living my life the way I would like too. I truly think it’s because of the abuses I suffered as a child and beyond!
Thank you, Tammy
September 9, 2007 at 2:06 pm
Its great that you’ve been finding all of these other blogs. It does often feel like I’m alone; nice reminder!